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  • Feb. 24th, 2020 at 12:08 PM
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So for lent, I'm giving up a list of things, in order to try to get more balance in my health and finances and in the hope that offering them up makes other things come to light.

1) Wheat (no bread, no pasta, no crackers, no tortillas, no chips, no wheat cereal)
2) Chocolate
3) Candy
4) Soda
5) Ice Cream
6) Cake
7) French fries
8) Peanuts/Peanut butter
9) Sliced Cheese and String Cheese
10) No Ebay, No Gymboree, No Amazon (except for 6th grade book- used)
11) Only presents for Stephen and birthday stuff for Truth, no non-essentials shopping or non tax refund planned shopping
12) Limited eating out (2x a week only)

3/28/09 Edit:
So far, I'm doing horrendously :(; though not necessarily every day... I just fall off the wagon... A LOT.  I've had pasta about 3 times, bread on a few other occasions and tortillas.   Candy and chocolate haven't been huge hurdles, but every so often I find myself in close proximity and ... scarf.  Soda, again, no where near "normal" but at a party or a restaurant... :(.  Ice Cream... ONCE :).  Cake... THREE TIMES.  French Fries (I forgot it was on the list the 1st time and then gave myself a free pass the 2nd and 3rd).  Peanut Butter, last week I was so hungry in the afternoon that I got out a spoon and ate a few spoonfuls from the jar in my file cabinet... TWICE.  Sliced cheese... only once.  Shopping... well, there's an entry devoted to shoe purchases and EBAY and I have clothed Moxie for the next year; Gymboree for a friend's shower and Amazon for 2 DVDs and a book.  Shopping has been BAD.  Have done much better with limited eating out.

All and all, not good... but, much better than "normal".  Maybe I'll just keep the list and try and and get to a holding pattern.
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1) Eat smaller portions
2) Sew 1 project a month
3) Pay 6k to credit card, while not incurring additional debt to credit card
4) Crochet sweaters and blankets for Moxie and Truth's baby dolls
5) Read my gardening books and then, you know, garden LOL
6) Keep house tidy
7) Play with girls more
8) Walk or dance 3x a week

Wtih tax return:
1) fence side yard
2) buy portable dishwasher
3) Chicago

Tasha Alexander's Lady Emily Ashton series

  • May. 22nd, 2009 at 3:21 PM
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And Also To Decieve
A Poisoned Season
A Fatal Walz: a Novel of Suspense


I found Tasha Alexander under the "if you bought this, you might like" on Amazon in response to the Deanna Raybourn books I've read.  I decided to give them a try since they were well reveiwed by readers and bought them used.

 Lady Emily Ashton is a strong headed young woman in the 1800s who marries to get away from her overbearing mother; at the time of her marriage she didnt' really care who she married and had little interest in getting to know her husband.  When he's killed a few months later, she grudgengly mourns, because she didn't really know or love him.  The first book "And Also To Decieve" chronicles the process of a woman falling in love with a husband she barely new, over a year after he dies.  In the process she solves a series of art theiveries and the answers some questions she didn't know needed answering.

"A Poisoned Season" is Lady Ashton coming out of mourning and embracing her own independence.  In this story, she finds herself victim to a jewel theif who is stealing from London's wealthy at the same time that a new pretender to the thrown of France has made himself a hit in London society.    We again follow her as she begins to unravel one mystery and find herself solving another she hadn't intended on solving.
 
"A Fatal Waltz" follows the political intrigue that ensues when a much disliked, but very powerful politician is murdered during a hunting party weekend.  Lady Ashton's best friend's husband stands accused and Lady Ashton makes a promise to prove him innocent and find the real killer.  With some close, very wealthy friends in tow, she goes to Vienna to try and track down a message that was sent to the victim before his death, in the process finding herself endangered and those close to her threatened.

Overall, I really enjoyed Alexander's writing.  It's everything Raybourn's is not... it's got depth, it's meaty, the characters feel much more like real people.  Lady Ashton is very independent and a bit of a free spirit (for the time) and it comes across comfortably.  She has relationships, but she's not dependent on others to get information for her, she doesn't fear seeking it out herself.  The first two books, where for the most part the mysteries being solved were fairly local in scope with a touch of political connectedness really work well, the twists and turns keep you turning the pages and caught up.  The third takes on political intrigue on the whole, and for me it actually doesn't work nearly as well.  The books are roughly about 350 pages in length.  It feels like she got really invovled in coming up with a plot and a story, then realized at about page 300 that she was nearing her "end point" and had to do a wrap up.  The story goes from being full into a really meaty and invovled situation, and suddenly the most mundane aspect of the story is the resolution and the story is over... but it doesn't feel like it should be.... and not in a good way.  I was actually left dissatisfied with the way it ended.

Fringe

  • Apr. 29th, 2009 at 12:04 PM
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I'm giving it a try on Hulu.  I'd watched the first episode and while I felt that it held promise, it was a bit to expositional to get my attention, then, frankly, I forgot about it.  Today I saw an ad on Hulu for it and have been watching it again.  The only thing that concerns me about getting attached is that they've set up a "conspiracy" already... so unless they're going to drag us through a conspiracy for X amount of seasons... which seems to "kill" a series within 2-3 seasons, I don't know that this show is going to last very long.   I think Xfiles did it best when they mixed the conspiracy in gradually and then would go away from it for a few episodes.  We shall see.  I'm needing something to fill my CSI void... I still watch CSI, but now that the GSR is gone, I'm not quite as "taken up" with it... that and Spike isn't playing it 24/7 any more to allow me to default to it. LOL.

Coincidentally, I read this article today.  news.yahoo.com/s/livescience/20090429/sc_livescience/lonelyheartsfindcomfortintvcharacters  Whoa to hit close to home. LOL

Silent on the Moor by Deanna Raybourn

  • Apr. 22nd, 2009 at 11:30 AM
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It's been a year, but I finally got to read the further adventures of Lady Julia Grey in Deanna Raybourn's newest installment of her "Silent on the _________" series, "Silent on the Moor".  I read it in a few days and enjoyed it, though again, it is very simple writing.  I've read mysteries that have much more complexity in style and language, so her writing tends to strike me as very... fluffy - but enjoyable.  We pick back up with our heroine, Lady Julia Grey, once again deciding to throw herself at Nicholas Brisbane, her would be lover (it's set in the mid-1800s and author sticks to the mores of that day) by accompanying her sister, uninvited, to help him set up his new estate.

She gets there and it's the usual push me/pull me back and forth, with her not taking no for an answer and him kissing her passionately one moment, and pushing her away for the next two chapters. LOL.  In some ways, I find it a bit maddening that in three books it's still the case that they're relationship is this way - though there is final resolution at the end of it.  More annoying is that the Author sets Brisbane up almost as an omnipotent character.  Julia begins to investigate strange goings on at the estate and as things begin to be unravelled, at almost every turn, RIDICULOUSLY, it turns out that Brisbane ALREADY KNOWS what she's discovered and frequently just couldn't be bothered to tell her *rolls eyes*. 

I'm not a superfeminist by any means and I am ridiculously romantic at times (I shipped GSR for 9 years... MSR too)... but I found myself wanting to send a copy of "He's Just Not that Into You" back in time for a great deal of the book.  The resolution is wonderfully romantic... but the way he treats her for most of the book was really irritating to me.   I know from misunderstood heroes, but the author takes it a step further... his actions are openly disrespectful and demoralizing to the heroine... and yet the ending has him do a completely romantic about face. 

The mystery itself is entertaining, focusing on the dark secrets of a family that is caving in on itself.  Truth be told, with some careful readjusting to allow for the confirmation of evidence moments, the author could have cut the character of Brisbane out and made for a much better paced mystery.

Again, liked the mystery and I liked the romantic ending, but had one major niggle.

Well rip my lips off and call me smacky... it only took me a few clues to realize that the books I've been expecting more meat from are actually romance novels.  I don't think that the publisher originally was going to market them that way, but someone in the romance section of the company must have read them and realized "hey, this is a romance novel without the smut LOL.  The three books by Raybourn have new very "romance novel" covers and the author herself seems quite happy about it and in retrospect... she actually seems quite the romance novel writing "type" if you get my meaning.  Very romantic in ideas and just... puts on that certain air LOL.
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This time of year, my first forays into Spring with respect to my wardrobe are usually footwear in form.  As the weather warms, I'll feel the need to cool down a bit, but usually only a small bit... shoes.  Since I had Moxie, style has worked against me/in my favor, depending on how you look at it.  Basically, none of my "usual" companies have made anything that really grabbed me enough to buy.  For the last few years, I've been content enough to buy from Payless or from a Discount shoe Warehouse... again, rarely LOVING any of the footwear I picked up. 

This year, I was pleasantly surpirsed to find that amid the excessivly strappy sandals that have once again raised their heads...(I always wonder if our parents dealt with this much revisitation of the styles they lived through)... CORK.  I love CORK... but frequently the styles just don't grab me... this year, Steve Madden did a few Cork styles... and for the first time in a long time, two of them grabbed me.  Of course, had  I not seen a banner for Nine West on Fanfiction.net, I would have been none the wiser, because I never get near a mall these days.  But there I was, there it was and I went and looked.  I didn't see anything I liked, but it did get me in the mood to shoe browse... so I went to Steve Madden's site and saw these:


Which of course had me go to Zappos.com (who take PAYPAL!!!), whom I buy shoes online from if I'm not buying from Payless or a Discount Shoe Warehouse and lo and behold, right after I bought the shoes above, I saw these:



And I was hooked.  Out came the Paypal passwords yet again.  Zappos was so happy to have me make two shoe purchases in one week, then gave me free overnight shipping... How cool is that given I'm not permitting myself to go back to their site until Fall? LOL

Mar. 27th, 2009

  • 11:44 AM
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I'm currently watching Season 3 of Miami Vice... and having been a fan for a long time of Miami Vice, Crimestory, Manhunter, and Heat, I'm sitting here realizing how over-the-top the acting is in anything he's associated with.   He must view that as being "real" or something.  It's actually a bit comical in every project LOL.

LOL

  • Feb. 19th, 2009 at 5:05 PM
I AM CANADIAN from avatarfish
So Stephen Harper (Canada's Prime Minister) is charmed that Obama actually went to visit Canada.  He apparently hasn't realized that his country is one of the few that is still solvent in the world. LOL

Feb. 19th, 2009

  • 2:01 AM
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Dear Favorite Geekfiction Authors,

Please post soon as I'm beginning to broach stalker magnitude in my checkings of your LJ in the hopes that you've given over a new installment of your oh so lovely fics.  I know writing is not an easy thing, but realize that getting your readers hooked on something and then not keeping the installments coming is like getting us hooked on Methodone and then cutting off our supply.

Please be forthcoming with my next hit er installment soon!

Meme

  • Feb. 16th, 2009 at 12:37 AM
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A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.

B) Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.


1. Make a list of 5 things you can see without getting up:
TV, Moxie's shoes, server cabinet, Jackets, witch hat

2. How do you style your hair?
I blow dry my bangs so they don't kink out and part it on the left... then it just dries curly-ish.

3. What are you wearing now?
Black sweat pants, white tshirt, blue fluffy robe

4. What's your occupation?
Human Resources Mgr.

5. Do you nap a lot?
Once in a while, when I fall asleep trying to get one of the girls down

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
Moxie

7. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
CSI and I have been watching a lot of House... I've never been drawn to it before, so I've a lot to catch up on

8. What was the last thing you ate today?
Fruit Loops with milk

9. What was the last text message you received?
One from a friend of mine asking if I wanted to carpool to a funeral for a good friends father.

10. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Yahoo mail, LJ, Facebook, various new stories

11. What was the last thing you bought?
groceries on Friday night

12. What are you listening to right now?
Monk

13. What do you think about before you go to bed at night?
family

14. What is your favourite food ?
Samosas

15. What is your favorite weather, and why?
Sunny with cool breezes

16. If you could play any musical instrument, which one would you play?
Classical guitar

17. How are you?
Okay, a little tired

18. What's your favorite time of day?
Dusk, I love the color of the light and the shadows

19. Say something about the person who tagged you:
Talented author

I tag [info]amyames , [info]anortherngirl , [info]loserfreak83 , [info]psychospider , [info]sualkin , [info]thefirethorn 
Kiss by rhcp
I'd actually spent the afternoon watching my favorite episodes and moments between Grissom and Sara  from seasons 5 & 6 on DVD. I'd watched :
Swap Meet: I really love how Grissom handles the dishwasher full of sex toys LOL... and I love how he and Sara have a veiled conversation on sex in marriage after interviewing the couple.
Snakes: I LOVE the scene between Sara and Grissom, how she lets him off the hook, just as it seems like he might do something...
Nesting Dolls: Love him learning about her past... just love their interplay
Big Middle: That scene where Greg is going on about the fantasy he has with Sara in it... 'was sure Grissom was gonna squash him LOL.
Committed: Really, how could I not, when the look on his face when Adam Trent has Sara at shardpoint is so very wrenching.
Time of Your Death: OMG, the looks Grissom was giving her *fans self* LOL
Way to Go: Love it, love their interplay while investigating the death of the civil war enthusiast and then of course.. THE SCENE.

I wanted to have myself in as warm and fuzzy a state I could get before tuning in at 9pm.  I was preparing myself for the worst, that they'd not really tell us where Grissom was going, or if there was to be anything more between he and Sara... then when it faded with him walking out of the lab with a smile on his face, and next we saw him in the jungle of Costa Rica... I hoped... then we saw Sara and instantaneously tears sprang to my eyes.  Thank goodness... thank goodness... it all wasn't in vain.  I can watch old episodes without having to pretend a bad thing didn't happen at the end.  Love prevailed... not in the most ideal way, but hell, I'll take it.

(k, I seriously need to stop rewinding the last scene in the DVR, we're on the 15th freaking viewing at this point)


PHEW!!!

Some other notes... I think it's really appropriate to promote Eckley to UnderSherriff, he's always been accused of being very politically minded, right?  Grissom walking through the lab and seeing all his people going about their work and being happy... that was really sweet.  I loved that Grissom's last interaction was with Hodges... I was thinking how I Iove how  they chose to have Hodges be the complimentary character to him, saying things that would trigger us getting to know more about where Grissom's head was at.  I am looking forward to Dr. Langston being part of the show, I think the "new" infusion, that's not in the form of some overbearing young girl, maybe just what the series has needed.  I always think of how much I enjoyed the Liev Schrieber episodes, even though I'd been reluctant going into them.

Jan. 13th, 2009

  • 1:49 PM
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www.livemocha.com

Languages:

If I do well learning German

Spanish
Italian
Hindi
Arabic
Vietnamese

Gameplan:

German:
Learn enough to where I can read the fairy tales to the girls, then the Max and Moritz book comes out of storage.  Listen to beer songs

Spanish:
Learn well enough so that I understand all the words on the news and in the Oracion de la Rana, which I will then start reading to the girls

Hindi:
Learn enough to where I understand the news on Namaste America and Bollywood films and music


Phlebotomy certification course, start looking into the career and see if it's viable and get anecdotal information from practitioners.

Zune Love

  • Jan. 13th, 2009 at 12:43 AM
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For my birthday last year, Z got me a Zune.  I have to say it's one of the best gifts I've ever gotten (of the non-child variety).  I'm a very eclectic music lover, my interests range from classical to punk to indian ragas... Zune manages to keep up with me.  It doesn't have everything, but it has about 3/4 of what I look for, even if it is an early 90s East Indian inspired new age musician LOL.  Whenever I open the program, (as he also got us a subscription to the Zune marketplace) I end up downloading at least 10 albums... then I sync them up to my 16 gig Zune and off I go. 

Writer's Block: Smoked Out

  • Nov. 20th, 2008 at 10:30 AM
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Beer and cigarettes once went together like bread and butter, but now smoking in bars is banned in many cities. When you see smokers standing outside bars in the cold and rain, what is your first reaction? Walk on by, join them, or scorn them?


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Having been a smoker, and had a few major relationships with smokers... I always feel bad for them.  Especially when they're all squashed together under some barely there awning in the rain.  It's an addiction, and for some, it's near impossible to quit.   I was lucky, I enjoyed it, and felt a "pull" towards it, but was never ADDICTED.  I still enjoy a puff or two once in a while (Z is a smoker).

Nov. 10th, 2008

  • 1:21 PM
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I spent the entire weekend trying very hard NOT to think about CSI... with mixed results.  At this point, I give up and am just going to  try to live in the world up to "Ending Happy" GSR fanfiction and AU fanfiction... and I'm semi at peace with this. 

It does help that I'm only half way through "Isaac's Storm" by Erik Larson and that I have a lot of other books to read.  Though I'm only half way in because I've reached the part of the book where things get dire, and given that its Historical rather than fiction, the thought of getting through this next section is what is causing me to keep putting it aside.  Over 6000 people died in that storm... and I've just started reading the portion of the book covering the storm.  Ironically, I'd started reading it shortly before Ike hit landfall, and the parallels were so crazy that I found myself watching coverage of Galveston and Houston 24 hours a day for days.   It's always so crazy to me how we forget what we've already done in history... Galveston was devastated, and yet they built again only to have it happen again and yet we pledge to build again.  We do seem to be gluttons for punishment.

Other than that, I spend the work day listening to pundits guessing what the next four years is going to bring until I get worn out by it and plop in a CD.  The economy has me worried, but all I really can do is take it a day at a time.  I've invested in a nice collection of "back to basics" books, which for some reason really have been speaking to me. 

We're contemplating a move to Chicago.  Next year we plan to visit and see if we like it.  I'm tired of all summer all the time and I'd like to be further in and away from the ocean and tsunamis (and I'm not joking) and yet still has the lake (and there are negatives of being next to such a large body of water but it's not as bad as the ocean).  I'd like to go to a smaller city... but for Z ...CHICAGO IS A SMALLER CITY. LOL  How did we make our choice you ask?  We're Cubs fans. LOL

CSI 9x05

  • Nov. 6th, 2008 at 10:07 PM
memories by pkgem-fanart
"Totally disgusted" doesn't even begin to cover it.  That was revolting.
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LOL... so I'm in a strange kind of fog with respect to CSI.  I'm currently following three AU fanfics but have no real desire to read any canon fic or watch any reruns on Spike and I'm even a bit ambivalent about watching any of the rest of Season 9 first run... or at least any of the remaining episodes with WP in them.  I'm really loving "Madrigal" by Mingsmommy and "Forbidden Hunger" and "Affair with the Law" by The Wolvgambit, basically because they're playing on the romantic aspects of Grissom/Sara's relationship. 

As a distraction, I happened to find that NBC is streaming MIAMI VICE episodes on it's site... and I'd forgotten just how much I LOVED this show when it was on.  Michael Mann produced it so it's got that moodiness and melacholy undertones that he tends to layer in most of the things he touches.  It's got really forward for the time music, as Jan Hammer was the music director and he'd use Peter Gabriel, Genesis, Devo, U2 and a lot of other bands that you didn't hear a lot from in the mainstream.  Great "guest stars", like Dennis Farina, Phil Collins, Jimmy Smits, Stanley Tucci and Bruce Willis, among many , were a lot of the folks we'd eventually get used to seeing as 'big stars".   I remember it being one of the shows I used to watch on Friday nights after we went grocery shopping.  Best of all, though there were some romantic entanglements here  and there, most of them were with guest characters and resolved by the end of the episode LOL.  I'm not in the mood for emotional depth that's strung out at the moment.

CSI Ramblings yet again

  • Oct. 17th, 2008 at 10:22 AM
love by forevernevermor
This is going to be as organized as I can make it, given that my mind is hopping all over the place at the moment.  I'm disappointed on a ridiculous level, and though I know they can resolve things by the time Petersen leaves or the series ends... it  bothers me that they have to be so unoriginal about handling a relationship in the series and a departure of characters.

For a long time now, I've felt like the writers really don't know "who" they're writing.  So much of the last 2 seasons has been so "out of character" for whom the previous 6 seasons had established them to be in respect to each other.  Some of this can be attributed to old writers moving on and new writers not being familiar with established canon and some can be attributed to a seeming lack of a story continuity editor... but a lot of it comes down to the fact that Hollywood Writers frequently rehash the same crap over and over, from one series to the next, from one movie to the next.  They will import and use the same plot devices rather than think of new ones. A lot of these guys and gals are so far away from what real people do that they just emulate what the writers on other shows do... I know of what I speak... I've worked with writers in Hollywood for 13 of the last 14 years.  People that spend much of their time writing alone or schmoozing for new jobs at lunch and Hollywood functions dont' have the most knowledgable perspective on people that work in law enforcement.  That's not to say that all in law enforcement are honorable... but even with a 65-70% divorce rate... some of them do make it... and some of those make it happily.

At some point instead of Sara Sidle, she became "typical law enforcement woman in a relationship Model A" and Grissom became "typical law enforcement guy in a relationship model B". The writers just wrote responses typical to any dramatic series having "romantic issues" that really didn't jive with the psychology of the characters. 

Sara Sidle is the child of abuse; hard working, driven, tenacious, loyal, vulnerable  and tenderhearted.  She was in love with Gil Grissom for 7 years, sometimes silently, sometimes heartbrokenly, but always wanting to be near him. She loved him and loves him; but,  beginning at the  responses they had coming out of her mouth in "Burn Out", I've been uneasy.  She had withstood rudness, insensitivity, rejection and those little rays of hope...  by this point she knew this man and knew what his moods were like.  She knew when to give him a wide berth and knew when to let her guard down and let him off the hook.    To have her losing patience, when he wasn't even doing anything he hadn't done before, was odd.  To have her LEAVE this man, just because she wanted to quit her job... was an abomination to everything they'd established her to be.

Gil Grissom was the product of a happy home, a loving set of parents that were only separated by death.  He's meticulous, considerate, kind, chivalrous, loving, slow to anger,  and at times, a bit clueless.  He's not the type of man that would not have his life partner fully apprised of his plans, he's also not the type of man to stay the night at a female friends place without letting his partner know, and he's not the type of man who'd just "give up" on a relationship with "the only woman I've ever loved" after "9 years".  People who's parents demonstrated a loving, close relationship tend to emulate those relationships in their own lives.

The most annoying part to me is they didnt' have to make this mess.  This show ISN'T A SOAP OPERA... we're not watching "Guiding Light" here, we're watching "Crime Scene Investigation".  We've got characters on this show that have disappeared into the woodwork for YEARS only to reappear suddenly with the implication they were always there (Vartan, Sophia, half the lab rats, Catherine's Mother Lily, Lindsey, Tina)... there was NO REASON to go down this path with Grissom and Sara.  They could have just as easily have her give him a big kiss and tell him "I'll be at home, honey".   We'd never have to see her again and occasionally we could hear him whine about the low cholesterol lunch she'd packed him.  The argument that "it adds to the drama or makes his leaving more plausable" doesn't wash, because 1) This isn't a Soap Opera or a Drama, it's a CRIME SHOW and we're not watching it overall to see their relationship  2) You can burn out on the job whether or not your partner has left you. 
This was just... what they always do... Doug and Carol from ER... a few other folks from ER from after I stopped watching it.  An assortment of characters from CSI Miami, CSI New York, NCIS, Greys Anatomy, Without A Trace, Ugly Betty and countless other shows currently running or on in the past... it's unimaginative, and it painted us into this stupid corner, that of course, they couldn't get out of without drinking all the Koolaid.

How original would it have been that from Burn Out, when he was snappy, she was understanding and a shoulder for him to lean on.  If he was open, caring and supportive when she was troubled.  If she was thankful, vulnerable and loving when she was needing to lean on him... If they apologized sincerely when they were mistaken...in short, if they were in a healthy relationship.  We don't get that on TV, and the argument is that people don't want to watch that... but that's exactly my point... this is a Crime show, we're not tuning in to watch the relationship, we're tuning in to watch them solve a crime and maybe get a glimpse of their lives once in a while... why couldn't it have been a glimpse of something that was working. 

To go off on a tangent for a second, we've got an almost 50% divorce rate in this country... some of that exists because people have never seen what a healthy relationship looks like.  They know the fantasy and they know the disaster, but they dont' know the day to day of "hey, we're in this together".

All that said, I remain distantly hopeful that they will have him ride off into the sunset with Sara... but I would have liked to be spared all the crap in the middle.

CSI

  • Oct. 17th, 2008 at 12:28 AM
my one and only still by adzix87
To say that I feel like I've been beaten up doesn't even begin to cover it.  I've got a huge response/rant in my head but am too tired to write about it now.  I really hate Hollywood writers and they're total disconnect with how people act in the real world. I work with these people, I know what their lives are like, and trust me, they really have no idea who they're writing most of the time.  More tomorrow.

In my own world... she said "of course" at the beginning of the ep... because when you've loved someone for as long as she loved him, and put up with as much crap as she did... YOU DO.  Conversely... you don't toss the "only woman you've ever loved" that quickly and without effort... YOU JUST DON'T.